Almost two months ago, I shared a dark, emotional moment I had titled “Out of the Darkness, Part I.” This is its (ongoing) resolution.
The presence of Emmanuel – God with us – was less about a physical person and more about a spiritual presence and promise. As we left everything undone and retired for the night, I was honestly numb. I mean, I had just cried every ounce of liquid out of my body! However, I did have peace and slept well as did our baby girl. All through the night.
As morning came with loved ones arriving, normalcy returned. There were moments when I honestly could do nothing but smile even when frustration or discontentment tried to creep in. It was only by the grace of God and a literal fulfillment of the latter part of Psalm 30:5 says:
“…weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning.”
Friends checked on me, even stopped by and prayed. I had honest conversations and made my self so clear/vulnerable because God never intended me… or YOU to handle moments like these alone. If He did, what is the point of church? The concept of family? Community? Discipleship? Even just the relationship among God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit?
The reality of life is not always pleasant and if we are made in the image of God, there is one thing that is so very sure to me now more than ever: we need Him AND each other. The LIGHT of God doesn’t stay within Himself, but it is lit within every believer at the strike of faith. At times, it can honestly get very dim by choice and/or circumstances. What then? Put in the presence of other flames, it has no other option but to grow bright again. Otherwise, it can and will diminish from its dim state.
There is so much that I could have detailed here. SO many passages of Scripture. It’s even crazy – I actually taught around the theme of Jesus being the LIGHT during summer camp this year. I do NOT believe I could have done it to the degree that some of those teenage girls understood it without this very dark moment happening in my life just a month before. Sometimes, authentication must occur in private so that our faith has true ability to lean on & glorify God in public. In those moments, we truly declare the power of who He is and has been when we were not.
Whatever state or stage you are in, dare to dismiss the darkness. Step that toe into the light or at least let it embrace you. You won’t regret it nor will the people you love that you impact. It may be the very thing that sets not just you free but someone else who’s in the dark and needs the light of God in you to guide them.