“And he [Jesus] went throughout all Galilee, teaching in their synagogues and proclaiming the gospel of the kingdom and healing every disease and every affliction among the people. 24 So his fame spread throughout all Syria, and they brought him all the sick, those afflicted with various diseases and pains, those oppressed by demons, those having seizures, and paralytics, and he healed them.” Matthew 4:22-24 (ESV)

IMG_7054The last week and days were filled with sickness that touched not one but all of our boys. Our youngest was first and probably the most ill-affected as his vivacious temperament was drastically brought down to minimal movement, difficult congestion and hours of sleeping driven by a fever knocking on 103 for hours on end. Then, three days later when things were looking up, I got a call that our 2nd child needed to be picked up from school as he suddenly became lethargic with a fever. We ended up calling him “The Carrier” because he was well within a few hours (or day? I’m lost). However, just a couple of hours later, our oldest (who RARELY gets sick) began to complain of a headache that ended up dragging him down to a fetal position and fevers on and off for two entire days. Of course, all of this occurred while I was preparing art to sell for an event that I also had to teach at. I knew something was headed my way to test my faith, but geez… that was a bit much.

IMG_7056.JPGAs a parent, when you get to that point when you realize “Oh… now, they’re REALLY sick!” it does something to you, especially when you see them suffering as this thing rides itself out. This is why I was and always am thankful for my God, Jesus, the Holy Spirit and PRAYER. Without my faith in God, I would’ve probably been in the ER or doctor’s office EVERY.SINGLE.DAY. Thank you for Jesus. As I prayed over and with these little boys EVERY.SINGLE.DAY, I became more aware of just how powerful this tool is. No, my babies didn’t get well instantly, but they didn’t have fever-induced seizures due to high temperatures, vomiting or blackouts due to a migraine, or severe pain that may have led them into the emergency room. God gave GRACE in the PROCESS. Never once did I feel “inadequate” or “insufficient” or “overwhelmed” (except for when using the SnotSucker one day made my head spin b/c baby boy was so badly congested … o.m.g.) I can honestly say I was just glad to be present in His presence. To automatically know that I’m unable but He’s able. To be grateful for Motrin and the wisdom He gave man to make it. And to have the opportunity as a mom to be at home. Yes, it PAINED me to see their little bodies suffer with what was abnormal and unwanted; every mom wants to take that feeling away. However, it led to great opportunities for all of us to pray over each other. Serve each other with water or blankets. Speak gently to each other with words of encouragement (“It’ll be okay. Jesus will heal you” sounds THE cutest from a 4-year-old). And even see the power of brotherly love as baby boy laid his head in his 6-year-old brother’s lap who, instead of being weird about it, rubbed his baby brother’s curls (insert the ugly face “AWWWW!”). Thankfully, and finally, with much prayer and laying on of hands in the form of hugs, all are healed and mostly back to their normal selves. We even got a well-deserved beach trip at the end of it all 🙂


There have been other times and with other physical issues, however, where I’ve felt Jesus was not hearing me or seeing me in the midst of everyone’s ailments. Like with the issue of eczema. I’ve felt like God didn’t want healing to occur for whatever reason. That it was one of the forbidden illnesses to be healed (truly leprosy like). I just questioned completely the validity of His Word and what He was recorded to have done while here on earth as stated in the opening verse – “and he healed them”… All? Riiiiight (my honest, sinful reaction). However, at some point, I came to the realization that my time is not the same as His. He is the author of time as well as the author and finisher of my faith. Those people who were waiting for Jesus to heal them probably had many thoughts such as mine as others way ahead were healed. Can you imagine the crowd? Maybe even the sun’s heat? Lines upon lines of people waiting to be healed. And that’s it. At some point yes, they-were-healed. So maybe – just maybe – God’s doing something in the midst of an ailment that is perfecting and finishing my faith unto healing that won’t look or compare to that of another person with the same issue ahead of me. For instance…

When I first started visiting our new church in May 2016, I was invited to Pray-&-Play – a gathering of moms from church who pray while their kids play together. I was new, a stay@home/homeschool mom and saw it as a great opportunity to meet people and for the boys to do the same. The first or second day, we were going around asking how things were and I mentioned being a little down with our baby boy and the eczema on his skin. It was currently out of control – I didn’t really know what else to try or do. At the same time, I told them I was convicted by the Word of God to be more persistent in prayer, like the widow in Luke 18. I asked if they could just pray that I not lose heart and really just contend for wholeness. Well, tell me why the woman who invited me to the group stood there in shock, goosebumps on her arms and gasps from her mouth because her daughter also had eczema related to severe food allergies. It had become so bad, she could only eat from a minimal meal list with special preparations. But you know what? I’m not going to tell you what happened… I’ll let her share the story herself. Welcome, Erin 😊

4/27/2016 (the day after meeting with the elders)

“[My husband] and I firmly believe that God still heals people today in supernatural ways. Not every time we ask, but sometimes he does! In the last 9 months we’ve seen [our daughter]’s allergies worsen and she’s started reacting to foods like oats, tomatoes, and corn, almost anything from a package, adding to the list that she already had–peanuts, tree nuts, whole wheat, soy… So, yesterday we met with the elders (pastors) of our church to pray for [her] healing of food allergies. It was a really sweet time of prayer and I felt God’s love and nearness.

“Is anyone among you sick? Let him call for the elders of the church, and let them pray over him, anointing him with oil in the name of the Lord.” James 5:14 (ESV)

“Although we left the meeting and [our daughter] was not healed (she had a small reaction to her homemade dinner I prepared for her), we were really encouraged.

“So, we’ll continue to persistently pray for Her healing and we’re not losing heart.”

“Jesus told his disciples a parable to show them that they should always pray and not give up.” Luke 18:1 (NIV) *Persistent widow parable follows*

That day, at Pray-&-Play, Erin shared the above details as well as what follows. Only God would have placed this woman in my life because for us to be focused on the same passage of Luke 18 related to the same illness in our kids was MIND-BLOWING. Right then and there, she asked to pray for our son and I as she tells us how the story ends. Below, she updates everyone in a social media post this year what happened literally two weeks before my family started visiting the church last year. Part 2…

“Wanna hear something amazing that will make your day? Last year, I asked you all to pray for [our daughter] with her food sensitivities. She was reacting to so many foods, I was going crazy trying to figure out what to feed her, making pretty much everything from scratch. Well, we prayed with the elders of our church last Apriland within a week of praying, [our daughter] was able to eat just about everything (except for nuts, of course–the life-threatening allergy for her). It will be a year at the end of April since her healing of the sensitivities. Our daughter is still well! Praise Jesus!  As far as the nut allergy goes, I think she does still have that one because she had a reaction at a wedding last year. But that’s one reaction in a whole year! Before, she was reacting almost daily. I had tried different diets like GAPS diet, Whole 30, Anti-Candida diet, none made much difference. We’d seen a few holistic doctors, 3 allergists too with little improvement. Praising God now for answering our prayers, YOUR prayers! Thank you for praying too! “My lips will shout for joy, when I sing praises to you; my soul also, which you have redeemed.” Psalm 71:23.


In Erin’s daughter’s own words… ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE WITH GOD!

I know none of this was a coincidence -from her miracle to meeting other parents in the church whose kids experienced the same thing and are now healed. As I’ve gotten to know Erin, I am so grateful for her example of faith, love for the Word and prayer life. I’m learning (again) we don’t control God with our requests and demands in prayer. We are asking simply out of a trust that He will in His wise-timing respond. He will give us wisdom with each persistent prayer as well as show us TRULY the Creator that He is. Yes, my baby boy still has eczema flair ups, and yes, I honestly ask God, Why him? But in the same breathe, I fall under the weight of conviction of being jealous and doubting His abilities, then asking for forgiveness and the joy to praise with others as I still believe for my own. It’s in that moment I see just why my faith is still in need of perfecting. Also, that God is working something greater out in my son’s life story in a way that will point directly to who and how God IS ALWAYS GOOD even when it doesn’t feel good.

Whether there is a temporary illness in your family or a diagnosed condition, I pray this testimony encourages you to grow in your faith in God’s Word. As much as I love learning about the human body and having a scientific basis for things, my faith must and still guide my thoughts and actions with wisdom. I have seen too many answered prayers, heard too many stories, and read the Word too many times in my lifetime to deny God His ability to grow my faith through His power over our bodies. It is a struggle considering the magnitude of doubt and “proof” our world resides in, but what an opportunity it is for us as the church to believe and seek to live by the words of Jesus in order to be a light in the midst of darkness, especially in our response and actions related to sickness and disease.

So, I dare you… Pray and Believe. Then feel the grace of God in YOUR process as He heals maybe more than what is physical… but heals also your faith to see that He really IS Jehovah Rapha.


Training Tip for Tuesday 

Credit: The Happy Housewife (click photo)

Training includes teaching, delegation and trust. A dear friend taught us years ago the concept of “I do. We do. You do.” I do it first to teach you how it’s done. We do it together so you can learn what I did. You do it by yourself now as you’ve been taught. Steps may need to be repeated with some grace and mercy 😏 and trust will need to be what ties your hands. However, the freedom that comes in family teamwork will all be worth it in the end.  

Warning: Non-Explicit Content Included, Part 2

A couple of weeks ago, I began blogging about sex , a topic too often shunned until marriage then awkwardly discussed afterwards. If you haven’t read it yet, I encourage you to do so as much of what I say is foundational to what I share below. I discuss how and why I believe the body of Christ has failed miserably in glorifying sex as much as it condemns it. It is my firm belief that if we would appropriately and enthusiastically train our children on the beauty of sex ordained by God in marriage MORE THAN we condemn it before (both must be taught), we would see a shift in current marriages as related to intimacy on all levels and a shift in future marriages in terms of purity, purpose, and preparation…

… yes. Preparation because there will be speed bumps along the way. In particular, for the wives and mothers. Continue reading



I was preparing to post part 2 of “Warning: Non-Explicit Content Included” when I looked up and saw news about the protest/riot at a California university. Then floods of posts and articles began to swell inside of my mind that I’ve seen this week, all related to political decisions that have occurred in the past 12 days. It’s been… just… alot. My thoughts stopped as I then remembered an article a friend posted on facebook (a day after I posted a blunt, political observation… geez, God!)

7 Questions to Ask Before Posting about Politics on Social Media

This article challenged, convicted and guided me towards wisdom as a believer. Even though I felt like what I posted and even my responses within what I posted were not mean or unloving, this article did make me think through things I hadn’t considered. With it being so easy to type, sometimes it can become so hard to obey.

So, that is what I’m sharing for this week. Thank you so much, Julie, for finding and sharing this because I needed it more than I realized. And so do many others. Please… as a believer or potential one (yay!), read this article THOROUGHTLY and with an open heart. Pause your emotions (and fingers) for a moment not only when you post on social media but also when in conversation with others. As the author of this article states,

“… we know that every person in the world must stand before Jesus one day and the ultimate issue will not be whether they had the correct position on national security issues… we need to remember that we are Christians first. We represent King Jesus and his church. When we speak, it should reflect the priorities and character of our King and [H]is kingdom.”

Warning: Non-Explicit Content Included

When it comes to discussing the s-word, for many believers, it seems to be explicit content. I want to change that mode of thinking through a series of blogs. Come with me to rattle or revive your senses in addressing SEX because, if we want to raise sexually healthy kids (the Biblical way) who have sexually healthy marriages, it is worth addressing the issue amongst ourselves as adults.good sex shirt.JPG

A week or so ago, I was invited to fellowship with engaged and married women. At the end, we wives who were married for fewer than 10 years joined women who were married for 10+ years in a combined session. It was in this session that an amazing woman of God talked about how to have and sustain spiritual intimacy with our husband. Can you guess what her first point was, of which she thoroughly enjoyed sharing about? Yep…

Sex. Continue reading

My NY Resolution? Clean Heart > Clean House

Now some of you (including my slightly OCD self) looked at the title and focused on the fact that I devalued a clean house (what now??), in essence supporting just all types of dirty homes everywhere (mm!!). FALL BACK!!! Breathe. There’s context… it being that I’m a mother of 3 children who has come to realize no matter how tidy my house may be, my heart most likely has THE most mess that no vacuum or bleach can clean. I’m learning that super clean/almost perfectly placed homes often have things to hide.


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“Mommy, your name is Esther but they called you Sheria?”

With entering a new season of our lives (literally and figuratively), it seems old friends and family are crossing our paths more, especially with the holidays coming around. To many, reunions are no big deal. I mean, who doesn’t like catching up over the holidays or running into acquaintances you haven’t seen in YEARS?? But to me… as a wife & mom who CHANGED HER NAME when she was single & childless… weeeeeeell, it presents its awkward moments sometimes.

That’s right. I legally changed my name via the courts in the late winter/early spring of 2006. Continue reading

Superheroes in Transition

Our kids like the good guys – those good ol’ superheroes. From TMNT to Iron Man. They sometimes make up there own of which I can’t even recall their names or want to. They’ve been infatuated with flatulents lately, so yea… just imagine. I find it funny that their favorite superheroes today were once favorites of years past. It seems to be the season of superheroes. Well, for some. Continue reading

Fearful Love Exposed

As any parent does, we reflect upon our childhood as we partake and shape the childhood of those entrusted to us – our kids. Where we may have experienced broken promises as a child, we seek to keep our own as an adult. Where circumstances affected our lives in unexpected ways and created cradles in our hearts, we as parents seek to prevent the same from happening to our own kids. Wherever there was bad with us, we basically seek to shield the same from happening to our kids and promote or duplicate as much of the good memories as we possible can. In all of this, we as parents say, “Lord, I trust you with them” but our actions grounded in fear and control issues reveal we really don’t. Here begins yet another challenging lesson of aiming God’s arrows in His direction. Continue reading